kissing

as i sit here at 4:36 am, i am playing beautiful by christina aguleria. i start thinking of the last 10 years of my life. the people ive met, the ones ive lost. on july 24th will be my 11 year that i have been married to my beautiful wife. we have had our ups and downs as with ever marriage. we have two beautiful twin boys. i have a wonderful mother. i have great friends. but of all the things that i have, i no longer have my father. he died on june 10 2009 of cancer. i have really never cried about his death. you know a real cry, where you get snot bubbles in your noes. well that just happened to me about 5 min ago. you never know when a loved one is not gonna be here anymore. 10 years does not seem like a long time but it is when dealing with life. life is too short to not tell someone that you love them. i saw something today that made me a little upset. i saw that will smith kissed his own son on the lip, and people said that that was inappropriate..... you know whats inappropriate. is not showing your son how much you care about them. i have two little boys who i kiss them on the lips everyday to express to them how much i love them. i kissed my father on his lips every time we saw each other to express our love for each other. the last time that i saw my dad alive, i looked at him. he looked at me. we told each other that we loved each other and we kissed. as i am typing this i have tears running down my chest and christina playing in the background. that was the last picture that i have of him alive. the next morning i got the phone call that he had passed. i was sad, but i know that we expressed our love that we had for each other. and we sealed it with a kiss.